Saturday, October 29, 2005

Update...

We are still without E's monitor and we are still sharing mine... But all is not lost... The most surprising thing is that I am on the homeward stretch of M's mermaid... G - I am up to the lettering!!!!! I think with having only limited time on the comp I am now turning my attention to other things - or is it perhaps because M's birthday is only a little over a week away that I want to finish it... Whatever the reason I seem to be achieving more this side of the screen since we have been short a screen - if that makes sense... This afternoon for instance I took my cuppa and my book and sat outside on the backstep and enjoyed an hour's reading time in the fresh air - bliss... I have come to realise how much time I spend on the comp when I could be doing other things... I think like us all I only intend to be on the comp for a short time but unfortunately the minutes soon turn into an hour or so and then the morning, afternoon or whatever has gone... And for some reason I seem to be more relaxed - well, as relaxed as one person can be seven weeks before Christmas, an impending operation and the liklihood of little or no hours at what is meant to be my dream job... However we plod undaunted upwards towards the Summit...

My thoughts have turned to what I would like to achieve next year... This year I have struggled to even get to where I have now... So I am considering what I would like to see myself having accomplished by this time next year and I am considering making a list of goals - perhaps then I shall see some inroads with my UFO's and my reading...

My intention in setting up this blog was to partly get involved with writing again and whilst I have to some degree written it is not quite what I thought I would write... I think that I have become bogged down in what I thought I should be writing - not writing what I wanted to write... I even started the other blog but lost interest very quickly in it... Then a few days ago I had this bizarre thought - what if I kept a journal type thing - well not a journal as such - more just a place where I could continually write - perhaps a visual diary of sorts... And what if it wasn't here - but in a real book with real paper and a real pen - now that is a lateral thought... See what a few days away from a comp will do...

Hopefully when all systems are up and running I can show your some progress on both M's mermaid and the other sampler which I had just started - I now have a photo of what the finished piece should look like given that I have changed the colour and type of cloth... Until then...

4 comments:

Jacqui said...

Sharon, can I very gently point out that when you say

" This year I have struggled to even get to where I have now."

that, if this year has been a struggle :-), then to get where you are now is not an "even" but is, in itself, an achievement. So, despite the struggle you have achieved a great deal because you are still here and you are still thinking and writting and sewing and giving and careing and 'being'.

Bring on next year and we will all carry on 'being' the wonderful people we are.

Someone much wiser than me once told me to count the people who depend and rely upon me, and to see what the impact of my not 'being' here would mean to those people, and that, that way I might begin to see my worth even if I could see it no other way.

AnneS said...

I think every now and then, introspection is good for the soul - it's good to make goals, and strive to achieve them. I hope the job thing sorts itself out - it must be really unsettling for you :( BTW not sure if I told you, but I saw that Mermaid chart a few weeks at The Needlepoint (old Bustle & Bows Malvern) - it's lovely ... Grandy, rest her soul, would have loved it too - she would have adored the Owl one ... every time I see an owl, she comes to mind :)

Gina E. said...

Just goes to show what you can do if you put your mind to it, Sharon! (Says she with a certain Indian UFO in mind..having been gently reminded by MIL recently). Jacqui, your words of encouragement are quite beautiful; I have taken a lot from them as I am sure Sharon will. I once learnt something similar to the experience in your last paragraph. I was told that we are all here to either learn from the people in our lives, or teach them. I thought about people in my life, and discovered she was quite right; I was amazed to find how many people I was here to 'teach' in one way or another.

AnneS said...

Gina's comment reminds me of a book I read ... I think it was "Journey of Souls" - about the same thing that we are here on earth to learn lessons etc, and to help others in their quest - some of it was a bit 'out there', but it was a fascinating read :)